i miss some1 who i loved so much..from the day 1

cant tell u,
cant count wth my fingers,
cant describe how important u r
and cant expressed my love to u...

Whatever it is,i just wanna let u know..
i do love u so much..
i know ,that i did hurt ur feeling n damaged ur strengh towards me...
but believe me n trust me ,i never meant it..
deep down from my heart...
im so sorry..
luv u,luv u n luv u till my last breath...

U r strong enough...Ilyana

dear Il,
sorry to hear about ur daddy,
He passes away yesterday during the maghrib at selayang hospital.
Oh god canmt imagina mcmmana il masa tu.
After class,i do visit her family at templer park..
Il,she looked so sad n down.
takpe il,yg pergi ttp pergi..kite yg hidup kene teruskan...
U r srtong my dear sista...

Luv ya..

alfatihah buat uncle mohd Khiar.

saturday....sunday

saturday ..hi u come again ha..
this is my 2 nd last saturday b4 being Mrs...
But ,i have a class today...it will be started at 2.30pm.
Hrni ,im not driving but tumpang org je ...Aza

the clas going very well.I like the proffessor who thought me statistics.
Hes very nice..Selagi tak paham die akan bg fhm.The class end at 7pm..tumpang aza until university station.naik Putra sampai KLCC,jejalan jap smntara tgu mis dtg amek..smpat la try perfume yg dh la aku admire roses by BVLGARI..harus di beli tu,but later la..rachel dh jnji nk bg special diskaun ni.
Ermm ,nk cite hrni i pakai contact lense..yela kene try2 pakai b4 my big day...mak i,nk cantek nye pasal dkt sejam i try pakai...baru ok.

Tunggu nye tunguu dekat kul 9 baru mie dtg...lama kan tunggu...Sengal.

Then im having my dinner at sasha's place..shes my planner..after discussed the relevant matter im going home at 12....
so tired....so sleeping timee.
nite

Sunday...
kua beli barang sekejap ...
then buat keje rmh sikit...

Its friday

Yahooo,today is the last day for working n attending my classes.
As usual my day will be end at 12am..
ermm,i woke up a bit early today ,,hahahha its just because i have a meeting wth my AGM.
Luckily,he sent an email n cancel it immediately ..thank god..Takde la aku sebuk2 nak kene menjawab soklan2 cepumas die.

Actually,i need to decide what is my third laguange that i need to take for this sem.God help me...Some of my frenz took Arabic n some of It Mandarin..Ya allah tolongla

argh,tak sabar nk tunggu malam.Nk tdo n boleh bangun lmbt esok...
k la chow cin cau...adios...


ok,continue...
Hrni adelah kelas terkahir dlm mgu ni...sepatutnye,tp esok ade kelas jgk...
So,as usual i drive my car all the way to gombak.Mlm2 mcm ni la nk menikmati suasana mlm.drive slowly je.Td masa otw ke kelas,mie called n cite kan perkara yg aku tak suke dgr,really hate it...damn!
masa balik ni buat aku terpikir2 solution nye.y this thing happen to me...y?im not regretted but i feel sad..y are they threated me like hell,...arghhh stress....
i want my new life,my new destination n future...what sud i do...god plz hep me out of this mess....

Reality

Day by day,....

I m just counting my day.Will it coming true?Can i get the happiness?Nobody can answer that.But insyaallah,this is all qada' and Qadar from Him.
what ever it is,fate is fate.Theres nobody can change it.
I just followed the flow...OMG,im so scared babe.
Can i make my dreams come true.Is it enough?
Oh god ,plz send me somebody to make me calm.
All the preparations is almost done.I just leave it to syasha.She will handle everything onbehalf of me.I wish i can have an enough time to do all this,but once i started my new semester,ill give my full committment to my study.Its to tired n make me feel too exhausted.
today my class will be postpone,my prof will have a dinner with Sultan Kedah.
Best Giler!
so ,i have nothin to say.Its better to end it here.
I see u guys later on k.

my weekend

hi hi hi..im back..
what i did last weekend?ermmm nothing much..As usual,laundry,cooking,ironing n the best is sleeping...wah best gile.
Last friday,i went to statistics class..Supposed to start at 6.30 pm...boleh tak?arghhh what to do,im a student kene awal n menunggu,tunggu punya tunngu i didnt realize time dah 8pm,till this time my prof tak turn up pun lagi.MAk i,takkn nk tunggu lagi,bagai pucuk dicita ulam mendatang,ca alif but la...best2,so i drived slowly....melayan perasaan..try to remember ape yg dah jd hr ni..
Ada some people yg dh perasan,yg aku ni dah lain,a bit silence..yela geram beb...argh rubbish to talk further bout this...

saturday,wah i woke up at 1 pm...hihihi,mcm princess kan...
ermm ,buat pe je masak utk alas perut.then layan hindustan.Mcm tak caya,1 hr aku tak kua dr rumah,even jejak kaki ke luar pintu pun tak de...
sunday,bangun awal sikit dr semalam,then masak lunch.
around 3,mie invited mie to go out..okla tu..
so,my 1st destinantion is kedai kek hidayah,ordered royal icing cake,then ikut mie g off jap,collect hutang org then straight to sg wang...
im looking my contact lense...grey n brown.
jalan2 sikit,having dinner n chow....
setiba di rumah,perkara yg paling tak suke buat adlaah gosok baju,cam hampeh je...
tu jela,what a bored weeknd.

now ,dah sampai masa buat keje..
minggu ni adalah heaven sbb bosses tak masuk for the whole week.
kite enjoy dulu....

bad day n bday syira

Hr ni aku smpai off ngam2,then terus masuk meeting.
ala besela,semua nk cite pasal restructure..ala tak de effect pada aku,sbb kene cmpak mana2 pun aku ttp buat keje,tk yah pk2,amanat ttp amanat.
Tapi aku mmg tak berapa puas hati dgn cara derang,wah dah lambat pun leh jd favorite, n now im decided tak payah sungguh2 sgt,berdiam lebih baik dr bercakap,sbb bila bercakap tu byk yg menyakitkan hati...hampeh kan...bosan la cite hal keje...

Harini,bday sya...
semoga panjang umor n di murah kan rezeki.
Nk celeb bday sya,tak pasal2 jd hal ..aduh macam2 la.Tp aku mmg tak dpt join sbb ade kelas

Workout
So,smlm aku tak gym,nk taknk aku kene g hari ni gak.Sbb nk amalkan seminggu kene g 3 kali.But b4 that aku nk kene g KWSP,ade urgent stuff sikit.
K la gtg,nnti smbung lagi...
DAa

2nd day having a blog

I just started my Semester 4.Today is the 9th day n 2nd week of kuliah
Im so exhausted.Yela ,hari2 kua rumah pg2 then tgh mlm baru balik.Pendek kata im the 1st person yg kua rmh,n of course org terakhir yg balik.
Kadang2,rsa mcm nk half way je study ni,tp mana boleh study ni penting.Wherever u go,education tu la yg paling org tanya2kan.
Life is so short,so selagi belum tutup mata,kite kene kuat keje n carik la sebanyak mana ilmu termasuk la ilmu akhirat.
So far,dah 2 years study as a part time student,okla.Penat jgn katala,mmg penat sgt.Duit pun kua mcm air paip.Dlu budget 1 hr kurang dari Rm20,sekarang ni 1 hr Rm50.Macam gile kan dunia hari ni,serba serba mahal.What to do,life must goes on.Setelah dipikir2 kan,im planning nk quit from TM.Nk cari keje lain,dah bosan la dgn environment kat sini,kalau tak pandai mengipas or pakai aircond,jgn harapla akan dapat apa2.Pastu,sekarang job task dah makin mengarut.Im sick with this people tau.U r really suck man!!!!!:P
Tp aku anggap ni sume motivation,n guys wait for my revenge k..Ingt ,sekarang allah bayar cash Beb…
K la gt nk sambung keje.Daaaa

New Baby Born....

Hi all,Ermm first time in my life having a blog.Been tought by Miss Ein.Nk cite ape ye hari ni,tp yg pasti ,hari ni adalah hari yg plg sengal n bosan kan.Mana tak nya,ada la hamba allah yg sakit kan hati aku..So mcm biasa,lunch time aku akan habiskan masa2 aku di gym.Salu nya g dgn Ein ni,tp hari ni die ada lunch appmnt dgn x bosses die.bila stress2 ni,elok la workout.Bia lupa sikit or prevent diri dr jd salah seorang penghuni hospital mental.Aku dah tak boleh lagi nk teruskan hari2 aku dgn org yg pandai berpura2.Like Hell babe!Org yg jenis depan cakap olain,belakang lain ni...mmg hidup die takkn bahagia.Kenapa ek,aku salu tolong org,tp aku tak sangka lak org boleh buat aku mcm tu.Tp takpe,hidup ni macam roda,bukan salu ko ade kat atas dan tak selama nya aku akan ada di bawah.Aku di bayar gaji bukan nk buat keje remeh temeh,tp buat keje yg sepatut nya.satu jela aku nk ingtkan korang...